When we decided to adopt it came from a different place...it was not us wondering why the Lord hasn't given us a baby in the 2 years that we had been trying...it came from a desire to serve the people of Africa. God has laid such a burden on our hearts- to serve those precious people someway, we just werent sure how. Once we decided that adopting an orphan was just what the Lord was calling us to do, we realized that this would also bring the longings of our hearts- to have a baby of our own, to life! And that was such an exciting realization! Now I have found that there is a special place in my heart for the children of Africa (not just my little boy)
For my birthday Eric got me the book On the Move by Bono...inside it are his thoughts and pictures from when he was in Ethiopia a few years ago. He also got me the African Children's Choir CD, which I have been wanting to buy. When I read Bono's book, I wept. When listen to the CD I weep. (I'm talking every single time people!), when I see a Feed The Children commercial I weep...the list goes on and on.
I say all this to say that God is moving in my heart, he is laying a burden and a passion there that is not going away and is only getting stronger as we get closer to picking up our son.
Eric and I often wonder what God has got in store for us on Ethiopia...we have been wondering for months and I feel like the Lord is going to reveal it some how soon. We want to serve there so badly...but how?...I don't know...